Baby Step of Faith

I think 2007 is going to be a big year of change for me. Not that I didn't experience a lot of growth and change in 2006, but I just have the feeling that I'd better hold on tight for'07.

Yesterday, I lead worship at our church for the first time. It's been something I have felt lead to do for some time, but never persued it. I have always felt inadequate, still do, but I am beginning to realize being adequately educated and experienced is not neccessarily required if that's where God wants you to be.

I have a tendency to question myself, which is not always a bad thing. It keeps your motives straight. But the day before I was supposed to lead, I really began to question everything.

Why are you really doing this?

Is this really where God wants you, or are you forcing this along?

So I just threw myself back into prayer.

Then he showed me that he had lead me right up to this place. He has guided my steps, aligned me with certain people, and worked all of it to this point. I looked back and even upon my first "audition" with our worship pastor, I did not go out of my way to make it happen. My very good friend and #1 encourager grabbed him and said,"You must make her sing for you!" And there is no doubt in my mind that she has been a Godsend in my life.

I felt like I was at a cliff, and had to choose to step off and let God carry me the rest of the way.

Well, I felt very good about the whole thing. Of course, I was scared and very uncomfortable, but it fit. That's the only way I know how to say it.

It fit well.